Then you’ll remember - Chapter 20

It’s rare when you get to meet someone, or something, that changes the way you perceive yourself besides everything and everyone.

That’s why last Friday was special.

But somehow I got this chance.

And I was keen to do my best to not ruin it.

It was late at night, probably 8 PM, cannot really tell. I don’t always have my watch on my wrist.

I was getting ready to go on a date, something unusual in my weekly schedule.

But I was ready to embrace this change.

Like I had any better option to spend my Friday night on…

I got there in time, and as I was expecting, my heart went racing the moment I realized it was happening. I was finally meeting this spectacular presence that had me thinking about all of her details from the moment I was awake till the moment I was asleep.

She was there too. Not waiting, as she was not focused on my presence interfering with her universal experience.

I smiled and I walked to the table.

She was time.

A stunning figure to lay your eyes on, but that wasn’t the best part about her.

She wasn’t from around here, but she was used to the human way of living.

I introduced myself, and as I thought before, we have always known each other.

But in a different form. That’s why I kept myself from asking all the usual questions I would’ve normally asked someone on the first date.

Instead, we have launched ourselves down the rabbit hole of human connection, and without any hesitation, I kept smiling all night.

She said it’s quite unusual for someone to never want to be discovered for who they are.

People are not easy to read, decipher, or understand. It takes a brave heart to understand that what they might not like the uncovered truths about someone new.

That’s why some have started living less intentionally, and more are letting themselves be guided by the momentum of their inactions, I added. I used to be one of those people too, I continued, afraid of my decision-making capabilities, to the point where I was barely living. Yet I was still not happy with my decision to not make a decision.

And what changed? She interrupted me.

I figured there were bigger stakes I should take into consideration. If I wait for something to be better, I might as well just spend millennia on this earth trying to find something as equally as beautiful as my imagination can develop.

And of course, many people showed me that kind of beauty of living, I added.

Are they still in your life? She curiously asked.

Not really. Most of the time our connections just stopped, but not ended. Sometimes I wish they wouldn’t but it was revealed to me on many occasions that the benefits are brighter on the other side of grief and loss. I explained.

But that’s not an easy memory to carry around, she continued. Everyone who once lived not only in your head but also around your space will always have a designated area of your universal experience.

And if you’re lucky enough, you will have a full beautiful set of not-so-strangers in your mind by the end of your life, she concluded.

But isn’t that tragic? Having to forget the ones you were once attracted to, so close to embracing every flawed aspect about them, and so committed to loving them relentlessly? I asked.

She said there are plenty of people I’ll have to keep forgetting. But as you can imagine, it won’t ever be an easy thing to do, she described.

Take us for example. We have always known each other. If the odds are not in favor of this, we will still be as we are right now, as it is not time to decide over memory but yourself making it feel timeless.

That means it should be easier to change the memory into a beautiful thing that we can carefully shape than to purposefully forget someone, I realized.

Of course, because that’s when you know you had a lot of love to give, she said. Imagine having to write 81 love letters. Such a hopeless situation.

But what if I don’t have anyone to write them to, I asked.

Then you’ll remember.

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